What kind of tarot reader am I?

I used Celtic Cross with positions meanings according to authors of Polish magazine "Tarocista", I. Podlaska and M. Krogulska.

1. My situation. III The Empress

2. An obstacle. VIII Justice

3. (at the top) Our ideal. 3 of Swords

4. (at the bottom) Source of the problem. Knight of Wands

5. (on the left) The past. 9 of Cups

6. (on the right) Near future. 6 of Swords

7. My attitude and knowledge. 10 of Wands

8. My environment. 10 of Cups

9. My emotions connected to the problem. 8 of Pentacles

10. The result. 4 of Wands

I have a potential and am very creative (III), but I restrain myself with perfectionism and criticism (VIII). My ideal is to connect the creative energy with intellectual understanding (3/Swords: creative III and intellectual Swords). The base of my problems is my ambition and impatience (Knight/Wands). In the past I had a break from tarot and it was connected to my mental and emotional disposition at that time (IX and Cups). In the near future it's possible for me to find a good partner for discussions (VI and Swords), for I have joined a Polish tarot forum. My attitude is... too grabby :D (10/Wands). I want too much, I want to be very good, but I don't have yet that much of experience. My environment (10/Cups) is very welcoming - I believe it's about that forum. I fear that I am too down-to-earth (8/Pentacles), but in the end I should find some balance in my desires (4/Wands).

German exam

I started German classes in May and now it's time for the exam - it's tomorrow. I asked how it would go.

I pulled V The Hierophant.

I believe it will go quite good, it's one of the best cards for education. We will see tomorrow!

Edit: The Hierophant enlightened me with his wisdom! The test went very well :)

Three fields

I tried to read tarot after some break and decided to ask about my three passions: Japanese dance, writing novels and painting watercolours. How will things with them proceed in near future? I chose "Tarot of the Magical Forest" for a change. I felt as unsure about tarot as I feel a bit insecure about that forest world...

I got VI The Lovers, Ace of Cups and XXI The World.

I believe it means that I will need to cooperate with someone to accomplish something with the dance thing - I suppose it means my husband's help in organizing performance. Maybe I will also find a disciple I'm looking for?
The Ace means that writing (which I almost gave up recently) is my true love and that in fact it pained me loose faith in my capability. There could be a chance of a publishing house accepting finally my text - there's a coin in the dove's beak! That would give me faith and enthusiasm for further writing.
As for painting, it's possible that since I'll be busying myself with writing, painting pace will be slowed and The World can represent an end of some cycle.

It all looks quite optimistic, unless I got it all wrong! :D

Tarot crisis

I'm writing to let you know that I didn't stop updating because I'm very lazy, but because of a tarot crisis. I haven't been reading tarot at all recently, so there's nothing to write on the blog. That is because I got discouraged.
I was asked by my sister to lay cards for her and so I did. Then I told her what I saw in the cards (the message looked very clear) and then... it turned out that I got it all wrong, in fact the opposite. This was one of the major reasons for me loosing faith in my tarot reading. Probably everyone has that moment of doubt - they think: "what if it really IS random and I make myself believe it isn't?". Or: "what if I don't possess the gift to read the cards?".

I'm not giving up on tarot yet. In fact, I'm writing here again, so maybe there is hope for me.

Did you guys ever have such problems?

What should I do to feel comfortable?

Because of the previous reading I asked the cards, what I should do to feel comfortable around my husband's family when I'm staying at their place. There is a language barrier.
1. What should I do? Page of Pentacles

2. What should I avoid? II The High Priestess

I should try to accept everything with openness and humour. I should avoid trying to be an ideal of wisdom, I should accept my being not able to communicate perfectly.

Going abroad

We're going for a week to my husband's family, to attend his cousin's wedding. I pulled the cards to ask how our trip will go.
1. Travel there. IX The Hermit

2. First place where we stay (family on his father's side). Page of Swords

3. The wedding. 8 of Pentacles (Rx)

4. The second place we stay (family on his mother's side). Page of Wands

5. Travel back. 5 of Cups

It's possible that there will be a delay on our travel there. At the first place I won't be very relaxed, because I don't speak their language, I will feel a bit off. The wedding will be a party of plenty, although probably wearisome to the body (I expect it to last the whole night till morning). At the second place I won't be allowed to do anything myself, because I'm a guest. Maybe the page also means my husband's uncle's blond children. On our way back we might feel new emotions, maybe discover something?

Spirit of the Day - III The Empress

This time I pulled III The Empress.

The levels were:

physical level - I supposed I will have more energy than the day before and thus I will be more active. I have resumed my dancing training today.
creative level - I will create. It turned out I spontanously baked a redcurrant cake!

spiritual level - probably I will be less pensive today. I actively worked on my notes about tarot.