Hello to Mary-El

I have wanted this deck for a long time and I kept convincing myself I don't have to buy it. I kept being convincing for quite a while (some 1.5 years), but finally I gave up and got the deck. Then it sat for over a month on the shelf, waiting for the right moment. Today I decided to start working with it and do an interview spread I found on Katey Flowers's page .

I decided on starting with reading it completely intuitively, without reading the companion book. That's because I have a tendency to get overwhelmed and constricted by very deep meanings I find in books. I need a more relaxed approach at first.

1. What can you teach me? 9 of Wands

To show my fangs, how to be more free and brave.

2. Describe yourself. XVII The Star

I'm an inspiration.

3. Describe me. Page of Swords

I'm in a phase of putting fitting puzzles together, filling empty spaces. At the beginning of my path (so the inspiration is very much needed!).

4. How can we work together? The Fool

In various ways, aiming for deep changes and rebirth.

5. Your strengths. XV The Devil

I'm not afraid to go to dark places.

6. Your weakness. Queen of Wands

I'm not good at being a fluffy kitten. Things might get harsh.

7. Our potential together. Ace of Swords

If we work together, we'll cut to the bone, get right to the essence of the things. Without sidetracking.

So... this looks very promising (just like my reading with TdM promissed!). I only wanted to say one thing about the card stock: it is a bit disappointing :( I'm annoyed by some flawes in laminating, which are very visible on the black backs of the cards. It looks like flawed foil was used. Other than that: very excited to have this deck and to finally start working with it!

M&L?

With my tarot passion rekindled, my hunger for new decks has also awoken. To to be expected.

I managed, however, to stop myself from buying new tarot decks - I've ordered two oracle decks instead! Can't wait to receive them. They will be my first ever oracle deck experience.

The dangerous thing is, my old unconsummated love for a tarot deck is alive again. I have a weak spot for decks that are pieces of art and this one is just... I can't put it into words. I mean the "Mary-El Tarot". I looked at it on the Internet many times loving it, but I never bought it because I had the feeling it won't work for me as a regular reading deck. Like I ask a question and get all those seraphim, firey lions and I totally don't get the message. However, now I've started to think I could do some meditations with it, using also the companion book it comes together with. I could expose myself to this stunning imagery putting a card on the desk and so on.

Then I asked my Tarot de Marseille about the matter. The question for the upper row was "how would my meditations with 'Mary-El Tarot' go?". I got 3/Coins, Le Mat, 7/Coins. For the lower row: "what would the effect be?". I got 2/Wands, Ace/Wands, King/Cups and additional card to see what he's looking at: 9/Swords.

It looks surprisingly promissing! Like I will start a whole new thing and I will feel uncertain and unsure, but also excited and will have the feeling I'm gaining something.
It would help me overcome some blockades (2/Wands being crashed by the huge branch of the Ace) and allow me to analyze my emotions (King/Cup looking at 9/Swords).
Oh, man... Now I have to get it, don't I?